Wednesday, 26 January 2011
Beyond The Shadows Of Doubt.
I walk the streets alone. To those I walk by, I make them smile, I make them laugh, yet inside cries the heart of lost and lonely child.
The ominous shadows of doubt, cast the darkness of despair, of dejection, of nagging futility. Depression robbed me of my dreams, stifled my aspirations, clouded my hopes. What was the point? I was destined to fail in anything I tried. From a very early age, I was grasped in the clutches of relentless stupidity. Stupidity confirmed by others and compounded by me.
And the fear set in. Too scared to be really involved, too scared of being caught out. So I hid in the shadows of doubt, away from the outside world. Depression told me to underachieve, give up on any hopeless dreams and live a miserable, mundane life. Everything in my world was choked with a sense of impending negative inevitability.
When I was a little boy, all I ever wanted to do was be a writer. Then, as I grew older, convinced that I was a stupid man, that dream of being a writer, that magical thought....just faded away. All I had left was those flickering remnants of a passion I held so dear.
You have your dreams. My friend, within your heart beats the enchantment and the wonder of the written word. Never let your dreams be shattered. You have the gifts of inspiration and that inspiration shall set you free.
Now the time has arrived. The flickering remnants of motivation, of creativity, are starting to glow again. No more living in my uncomfortable 'comfort zone'. The spirit, the affection, the love of writing, is making a triumphant return. No more fear of failure or fear of success. I will dare to dream again and give it my very best, to make my dream, a beautiful reality. Today I move on beyond the shadows of doubt and breath in the fresh air of a new dawn, a new beginning.