Another Chance. A New Beginning.

And thus, 2017 is about to enter the history books.  A year like no other.  A year where if felt like we were all cast members in some strangely weird and rather worrying blockbuster movie. A year where real news and fake news blended into one surreal concoction of confusion, sprinkled with a large dose of political propaganda, led by the delusional, ego-maniac, bungling buffoon named Trump.  Yep, what a horrible thought, things that go Trump in the night. 

Now, you and I are on the dawn of the New Year of 2018.  The personal journey you travelled over the past year may now indicate that the pathway has ended.  You might decide to make a new pathway choice.  Do you go left?  Do you go right?  Do you turn around and go back down the original pathway and reevaluate the experience? 

I do know that, just like the beginning of every new year, I cling onto the dream of a world where, instead of humanity being in conflict, humanity celebrates the beautiful power of an all different, all equal planet.  A place where no longer shall the most vulnerable in society pay for the mistakes of the incompetent fortunate. 
On behalf of Penny the Jack Russell dog and modest internet superstar and my beloved son Tristan, we wish you a peaceful, positive 2018.

Another chance.  A new beginning......

Wee Folks Christmas Wish, 2017.

Ah, the blessed wee folks. The celebration of life's little wonders are truly cherished by Fidelina, the beautiful fairy princess, her loving husband, Geoffrey the garden gnome and their boy child, Einahalk. Rejoice and treasure the precious gift that is life. 

Love doth bloom.  A budding, ongoing romance is there right before our eyes.  

Cheeky monkey in a group hug with a couple of gnome wee folks. 

I fondly recall the times the wee folks played, danced and sang in the magical, enchanted garden where once they did live. 

These days, the wee folks congregate on the living room floor of my apartment. Their Christmas festivities captivate as I gazed into the magic of it all. 

Here's Penny the Jack Russell dog.  Penny, symbolic of the lessons about her approach to life of one of non-judgemental, unconditional love.  Note her and three of the wee folks.  How content they all look

Indeed, Fidelina, the beautiful fairy Princess, Geoffrey the garden gnome and Einahalk, wish for you, for all of us, to learn to live in peace.  To embrace and learn from each other in an all different, all equal, inspiring diversity  

And Penny, beautiful, loving Penny, believes in you, believes in me.  Believes that "humankind" will be just that. It must be our legacy for our children. 

A snowy night

A glistening delight

Immerse yourself in this sight

Time to make our world just right

Humankind

Intertwined

As we seek to find

A love aligned

The wee folks want us to comprehend

That, together we shall create a magical blend

Foes become friends

As we make amends

Help each other

Sister to sister and brother to brother

The wee folks and Penny, wish you well

As you dwell

In contemplation

A better world for the next generation

Help each other, we help ourselves

As told to us by the fairies and the elves. 

The Door Is Ajar.

Finally, at long last, it appears that the door is a jar.  Nope, try again, the door is ajar.

The door that had kept me closed in, trapped in my own anxiety, laced with a liberal dose of negative speculation, is now ever so slightly open.  Through the ever so slightly opened door, I embrace that glimmer of a new hope in a new reality.

The past year and a half have tested my mental health well being to the wildest, scariest extremes of paranoid, panicky despair. Government bureaucracy, lack of communication, passport problems and the what feels like the never ending saga of staring at planks, at scaffolding......

The anxiety, oh the anxiety lingers.  The past year and a half have impacted me profoundly.  And yet, I've battled against the injustice that toyed with my right to a peaceful, positive life.  Despite struggling with the overwhelming sense of being imprisoned in my own very personal world of impending insanity, I'm nearly back.  I'm amazed at my resilience as I now have my benefit entitlements sorted.  That is such a relief.

As for the scaffolding and the planks outside my apartment, I've been informed that they will start working on the roof in February, 2018.  By the time it's all over, I will have been stuck staring at the wood and metal monstrosity for ten months!  It transpires that there has been an insurance claim issue as to who is responsible for the cost of fixing the roof.

The recovery after such a tedious, tumultuous time will be one of gently taking care of myself.  The mental and physical exhaustion makes typing every word one small yet significant triumph in my passionate desire to get on with my life.

For the next little while, my posts will still be sporadic at best.  Although, the wee folks have assured me that they will be doing there annual Christmas wish posting.

I want to thank you for your understanding.  I've been most frustrated that personal situations have made it virtually impossible to even contemplate writing a post.  I'm truly sorry I've been very much lacking in interacting with other blogs.  If the truth be known, I'm embarrassed to have the comments section switched on considering my lack of being proactive.

If it wasn't for the company and supportive advice of Penny the Jack Russell dog and modest internet superstar, I may just have stayed under the duvet instead of noticing that the door is ajar.

Thank you, Penny and thank you, my friend on the other side of my computer screen.